Doing Something Right

Its a rainy fall night. A stiff breeze blowing through the trees. Wet leaves blowing off of them and against your face. Cold and damp. Cleansing.

I have been feeling down. Maybe not just down, but thoughtful, sad, hurt, something, maybe a little Han (if you don't remember its in the archives somewhere). But I am not suffering. I guess what I need right now is something that I can only give myself. It's something that all of those who have known and loved me have never quite gotten. In fact I can pretty safely say no one has ever understood this about me. I am a pretty raw person, I wear my heart on my sleeve and I certainly do not hide my emotions. It annoys people that I give honest answers to the question, "how are you doing?" Yes, I feel down right now. And someday I will move through it, but my goal isn't to get it over. It's to learn from it. And no matter what, always, always, always be who I am. Never disguising, never apologizing. Just give the world who I am, how I am. Pure Mike.

My mom sent me a bunch of pictures from home today. I am homesick for home places now, I miss Okemos, I miss TC, I miss San Francisco. Anyway she sent me some paintings that David did and one hit me hard.

For me, a combination of soul, and David, and Abby,
and optimism, and deep emotion, and humor.

If they're shooting at you, you know you're doing something right.

-The West Wing, "The Midterms"-