Today

There are days when the smallest things can just send you sliding down the hill. Today is one of those days.

Yesterday the construction workers on campus hit a gas main and they had to shut off our gas all day. So this morning I made sure to make sure I was going to have hot water when I got back, and sure enough nice hot water came out of the faucet. But when I got back there was not a hot drop to be found. I confirmed it in the kitchen, the stove is off too. I know this sounds petty and small, and in light of yesterday's post strange, but it just made me cry.

I feel hopeful yes, I really do,

but I also feel really really fragile.




Some days I feel like crying
It don't matter if it's rain or shine
I feel like my heart was broken
At least a million times

Some days I wake up dreaming
Feels like I've never even woke
I answer life's big questions
As if it's one big joke

Maybe it's too soon to be sure
But I really do believe that someday
We're gonna have it all
So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on
Carry on
-Jeremy Kay, "Have it All"-